Never actually understand, even if they try, because all they see is you, on fire, screaming about the arsonist that no one ever sees, and who has been spreading lies about your alleged mental instability, deceptive personality, etc. Anyways, I especially relate to her midnights becoming afternoons, complex PTSD often leads to this phenomenon, whether due to purposeful sleep deprivation by the abuser, or just hyper vigilance associated with the PTSD, along with the fear of facing people, especially your loved ones, who funny how you say the words domestic violence, abuse, abuse survivor and boom the subject changes. The abuser has no anxieties, no emotional pain, or salience/memory for that matter, so the survivor appears to be the crazy one, obsessed with the abuse and that buzzword that seems to ignite arguments about diagnosing people without a degree, etc. I believe this is another amazingly on point and nuanced commentary on the insanity that follows emotionally abusive relationships. All sanity, rational thought, fall over the edge, and break down. The tipping point goes, and a release happens. The pressure, the pain, sadness, existential loneliness, and the exhaustion of fighting, over & over & over eventually sending one to the precipice. I understand the lyrics on a profound level. \n\nI\'ve traveled to the edge of madness myself in the past. “Why didn\'t I know? What could I have done/changed? Why can\'t I reach you? If only I loved you more”. \nWhether Familial, parental, friend, or relationship dynamic the process is the same. \nWhat\'s beautiful about this song is it applies to any type of relationship with a suicidal person, not just a lover. \nThe rest of the lyrics are a plea and bargain to the person, and talking to themselves (guilt). \nThe witness empathizes|- I don’t blame you for quitting, a sense of beauty in release (pain is over, expectations gone). \n“If only you could hang on through the night” - the hours left unobserved, whether in hospital, or the watcher sleeps. I don\'t know if it was written for the film, K-PAX, with that very theme, or was used. And ultimately losing them to physical or psychic (cationic) suicide. This song is about witnessing a person you love slipping into madness. If only you could hang on through the night
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